Teaching

Selfish... That is a frightening word. I think it becomes even more frightening when you realize its about you. Think about it... when someone else is selfish it is so ugly. No one wants to be around someone like that. Its something that we all learn about as a child. Don't be selfish and share. I read a question recently and it made me think about it.

"What does God want to make shiny and new in YOU?"

I started looking at how I had been living lately. Everything pointed to myself. My time, my stuff, my money, what I wanted, what i didn't want around me. That is a lot of me. I went to the store with Allie and hated every moment of it. I tried my hardest to get through it without complaining. The Truth is I was just a jerk. Seriously, It was all about Alyssa and what she needed to get done so I hated it. Forget the fact that I got to spend some time with her, which I don't get to do a lot lately. After reading that question I started to think of ways to serve her and did a few. It was a little hard at first. Here is where I think I realized how bad I was.

I was sitting at the table working on something and she was cleaning and putting stuff away. She dropped some rice all over the floor, I was a little annoyed because she made some noise when I was trying to get stuff done. See what a punk I am. I knew that she was going to finish putting the rice away and then clean up the mess. I knew that I could stay right where I was and she would do all the work. Thats when I noticed my selfishness. So I got up and made a decision to serve. I got down and picked it up for her and cleaned the floor. She was so thankful. Thats just one little example and I am sure that my life is full of many more that I can change. I only need to get outside of MY world and look at the world around and start to serve. Maybe there is something that God wants to point out and change in you. Maybe it's selfishness or something else. Whatever it is I pray you would see it now and we can work at being more like Him together.

tweetle deeetle eet

I was listening to the radio today and heard an interesting topic. Twitter! okay it was about the bible and twitter. There is a Worship Leader who decided that he was going to read a chapter of the bible every day. After reading he will then send out a tweet on what he read. There were people calling in to the show expressing their concern that this was a dangerous idea. One caller remarked that no one should take or add to the words of the bible. I am a little shocked that anyone would ever assume that a person might take someones twitter comment as the definitive truth. Is this even a debate. When did twitter become a way to teach and learn. I could just as well say the same argument about a physics book. Ill take a chapter a day and tell you in 140 words or less what I thought. And that is all it is... a thought, an idea, one mans opinion. I doubt i would find one intelligent human being that would honestly think that by reading my post, they have understood and comprehended an entire textbook. On the other hand I think its a great way to flood a otherwise mundane technology with the word of God, as small as it may be. I think we have a lot more to worry about in this life than parts of the bible on twitter.

Happy birthday

Today is me and Rach's anniversary, and Saturday was her birthday. Okay well it would be if she was still alive. It would be 7 years. Wow that is a long time and 3 years without her is just as long. I was thinking about her this morning. The good and the bad. Not only that but it made me think how different my life might be if she was still here. Of course its all hypothetical because she is far better off where she is now. But loss is something that really grabs your attention in life. It could be the loss of a friend or the most annoying kind of loss, Losing your keys."I KNOW I JUST HAD THEM A MINUTE AGO!!!" Either way it really makes you pay attention to the way that you are living. It makes you think about your habits and all the little things that you do that have become a part of your life. And the biggest thing it does is make you realize what you need to change. When i lost Rach I knew the thing I needed to do was to appreciate the time I have with those I love. It made me realize that I don't have forever and neither do they so better make the most of it. And also to live my life that it points everyone to Christ and His love. Another thing I now know because of it, is that God is in control of every situation. He took her and though her life was short she made an impact to those close to her. At her funeral there was so many people the room was packed and everyone was telling stories about how great she was. That was awesome and it was a time of celebration because her suffering was over and the next time we see her...wow that will just be awesome.

But the fact is God really got a hold of my heart in that time. He showed me where true Joy is. He showed how to look past myself and see others and the situations they are in. Stop judging them and have Christ-like compassion for them. I don't know how different my life would be if she was here, but I know God knows better than me. He had a plan in the whole thing to draw me and others closer to Him. I don't get why God does things and I never will but I do know this. No matter what situation you are going through if its good or bad, God wants to use it for his glory. And He wants to draw you closer to him. Can you see Him? Now where did i put those keys..